I'm ruined

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Since the incident, we can't even talk properly due to you have aslo your own pressure, so do I, I do really hope we can be like the days that we've just met before. It was so sweet and even it is so memorable for me now neither. You are still the one which is my first priority. Dear, how I wish I can address you like this rather than others, at least our privacy moments.

Wee Wee, I don't think you will read my blog now, I would like to tell you, when you told me that you don't wanna talk to me, I feel so heartache you know? Since the day I fell in love with you, I know you are the one who can hold my hand for the entire life. However, occupation is your first priority. This is the only thing I know, others, I don't really know. Have no idea at all.

I don;t even can assure that what kind of relationship we having now you know? You are still confusing me. Yes, you are.

I know you don't wanna talk to me with your bad mood because you've got really no mood to talk and you don't wanna spoil my mood as well. I think this is the best way for me to convince myself from missing you badly.

These few days I did go out with friends until late night even I was so damn tired and exhausted. This is just because I can;t stop myself from thinking of you and missing you. I cried, when I saw your message and told me that you had no mood to chat with me. At that moment, I still need to pretend that I was so tough and cheerful.. smile to you and what so over instead my heart was like bleeding.. I don't know when can I meet the cheerful you again, or when only you will talk to me again, or when only this kind of misty relationship can be cleared ? I wonder..